September is unleashing its dismal rain already; a fine example of pathetic fallacy as the kids troop back to school. It’s a new breath for me, too, so this post is just to let y’all know that as of this month I am changing the focus of my ‘business’. Mainly because I hate running my creativity as a business – I’m not good at it in its current form, and it’s hollowed me out. I’ve been making things to sell, for money, and the constant hustle of “Look I made this! It has a price, which may or may not match what it is worth or what you can afford, but please buy it, because I need your money to pay my bills.” is not making for a happy me.
I’ve done some thinking, I’ve made a decision, and I’m taking a step back. Taking time to breathe, to get a part-time job and thus sever the entanglement of financial need and creative expression. I’ve tried, I really have: I’ve done the courses, I’ve read the books, I’ve learned the social media and the Etsy algorithms – but my heart has never sat easy with it.